Scott and I were up watching some t.v. the other night after all the kids had gone to bed and we couldn't find anything good. After a while we finally decided on TLC and watched 18 kids and counting. Just a little background on the show in case you haven't heard of it, it's about the Duggar family who have just had their 18th child, the kids range from age 22 or so to newborn.
Ok, so we're watching the show and start discussing the odds of this family having so darn many children, and ALL of them are normal (keep in mind when I say normal, I mean health-wise, I am ignoring the fact that they wear "church" clothes everyday, don't watch tv or listen to non-religious music, and in general are very odd).
Scott and I have 3 kids and 1 of them has significant health problems, how is that fair? Don't get me wrong, I love Ivy and cherish every moment I spend with her, but it is extremely stressful to be in our situation. I don't want to lie and say that it's easy, or that I am happy about it. It's hard, and everyone wants to have a healthy child. Everyone says Heavenly Father wouldn't give us something that we can't handle, and I agree with that, but that doesn't mean I have to like it.
I guess I am just a little jealous of the Duggars, not the fact that they are crazy and have WAY too many children, but the fact that they are all healthy and haven't had any significant struggles. If they had a child with significant medical problems, maybe they wouldn't have had so many just because of the medical bills. Now don't go and think that I am wishing for them to have a baby with problems, I am not, I don't wish this on anybody, I am just venting frustrations.
I really am honored to have such a special being in my family, she is so strong and amazing, and I can't even express how much I love her. But she has gone through more in her short life than I have in my 27 years, and I just don't feel like its fair. I wish she didn't have to go through everything that she has and will continue to go through her entire life. Life would be easier if her heart had developed normally. We could get out of the house, go to church as a family, be semi-social, but all of those things had to be put on hold to ensure Ivy is in the best health for her upcoming surgery. My heart aches to think she has to do it all over again, and as her mother I just want to make it all better, but there's nothing I can do.
okay, now that I am sobbing and feeling sorry for myself and her, I am going to be done. I just hope those Duggars know how lucky they are that all their children are healthy.
Friday, March 6, 2009
What are the odds........
Posted by Rochelle Brunson at 11:00 AM
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Im so sorry for everthing you little family has had to go through. God must have thought your family was extra special to send you such an amazing child, to know you are the best people to take care of her. You are an amazing mother and you have every right to feel the way you do! Ivy will grow up and have so much love and respect for you, beacause of the ways you handled the whole situation. I am so amazed by you Chelle, your awesome!!
I love reading your blog! I completely get you and am glad that you share your life with those of us that can't be close to do it in person. You're awesome!
Chelle you and Scott, are amazing parents. Heavenly Father knew you would be able to give Ivy all the things she needed, both spiritual and temporal. Ivy knew it too, that's why she is with you, she chose to have you for her parents, and she chose to be the way she is. You are so blessed to have this awesome family. Just keep doing what you're doing. Your greatest reward will be realized in the eternities.We are so proud of the wonderful job you and Scott are doing in raising your little family.
We love you!
I can't even imagine what Ivy and yourselves have had to go through. But I appreciate your candor and honesty with the situation and that it's not easy. You are so strong and you have such a great support system. Don't ever forget that. You guys are an inspiration and I could only hope to be half the person you are.
I know it's tough and I know there is no way for any of us to truly understand how hard it is. Sometimes I think life just sucks. I know I have had my fair share of feeling sorry for myself with my health problems. It does make everything so much harder. And the bills are so stressful. But like my mom always says, "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger." And I think it's okay to feel sorry for yourself every once in a while and be frustrated about it. I have just decided that sometimes I need to complain and that's okay so long as I never give up or give in. I know your situtaion is much more difficult than anything I have ever experienced. I just wanted you to know I feel for you and you are a great example to me of a really great mother. Hang in there and call if you ever need to complain, I am all ears.
I Thank the Lord every single day sometime multiple times a day for how healthy our children are. You are a great mom and are taking such good care of that precious little girl. No one can say why things happen the way they do, but I'm sure we will find out eventually.
I guess I don't really know what to say. It really is a blessing and a miracle that most children come out so perfect. I guess a person really can't understand that until they have a child that isn't. Thanks for sharing your strength with us.
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